Yes, I am actually posting for the first time in a long time!!!  It's a miracle!  Then again, I don't know if anyone even reads this stuff anymore!

Anyway, some of you know this already and some of you do not.  As of March 21, 2007, I am a single woman.  Danny and I broke up.  There are many reasons for this and no need to go into details, as it really is no one else's business but our own.  Just thought those of you who were still planning on us getting married would like to know it's no longer happening.

Let's see...I've been home since December 17th, 2006.  Graduated from college with a BA in Psychology and still have no job to show for it.  Go figure!  I've just been hangin' out with friends, singin' karaoke, baby-sitting, job hunting, workin' out, etc.  I think I've learned more in the last 5 months home than I have in the 4 years I spent in college, or even the 23 years I've been alive!  I guess the most important thing I have learned is that you cannot expect friendship to stretch all spectrums of life.  People are going to hurt you.  Some will hurt you intentionally.  Others won't mean to, but it'll still happen and it'll still hurt like hell.  The worst is when the people you truly care about, who supposedly truly care about you do things they know will hurt you the most and really don't care.  Honestly, why would someone do something they know is going to hurt a person insanely when they really don't want to hurt them at all?  I don't get it.  To me it's like that person doesn't care if they're just going to hurt you anyway.  Sometimes I guess a friend isn't a friend at all, or at least they don't care as much as they say they do if they can intentionally hurt you in some way.  I just don't understand it, but I have definitely learned there is only so far friendship will stretch, and when you think it can withstand all types of circumstances it goes and slaps you in the face.  That's life for ya, right?  My advice...be prepared to be hurt, especially by the people who you think will never do a thing to hurt you!

I'm in a funk...and the crappy thing is that I don't know why!

I'm back at school, but am not overwhelmed or anything.  I have a lot that I need to do, but I just don't have the drive to do it, but I don't know know why.

This just sucks!

I'm sitting here, in Marsha's house...had a few talks with Julie, and a couple with Jimmy, too, and was a little disappointed in Kathy.  I am very sad, but I love Kathy, Jimmy, Julie, and Richie all very, very much.  I did not just get to know this family because I loved Marsha.  As the years have gone by, I have grown to love each and every one of them for many different reasons.  They are all wonderful people, and I am grateful to know them, and I am even more grateful for knowing the wonderful woman who helped to hold them all together.  This family is truly amazing, and although I am so very sad right now, I would not change a thing in my life, because it would risk not knowing any of them.

I have been on spring break, and have come home early for unfortunate circumstances.  I'm leaving NY on Sunday, staying in Ohio, and heading back to school Monday to get in before classes start.  It has been a rough spring break.  I mean, I came home early for a funeral and a memorial service, and have pretty much been reading and writing papers all during the day.  I do not feel like I have had a break.  But, I am very grateful to be around people I truly care about, and those who care about me, even if they don't always express it in the proper ways.  Right now, though, as much as I may need a break from life in general, I am glad I am going back to school soon.  I am just too sad right now, to really enjoy much of anything.  It's been a long month!  And, that, by far, is an understatement!

This month has definitely not been a good one, at least not thus far.

I'm so sad.  First I crash my car into a light post on the 7th.  Had just under $4000 in damages done to my car.  I have to go to court the beginning of April because of it, too.

I've had a couple of posts asking y'all to pray for Marsha.  She passed away Friday morning.  I had gotten a text from her daughter on Thursday that she and her brother were being flown home to New York from Florida immediately by their brother.  I got a call from Richie that night when he and Kathy landed that they were on their way to the hospital to see Marsha, and that Jimmy had flown them home because they were expecting it to be her last days.  Rich said he would call me after leaving the hospital to give me any updates.  After not hearing from him by 4am, I went to sleep.  He called me at 8am Friday morning in tears, holding himself together long enough to let me know Marsha had passed away.  It was a very sad, very stressful day.  All I ask now is that you keep Marsha's family in your prayers as they go through this difficult time in their lives.

Saturday, I had to go to work, and I got a call from one of my friend's that her grandmother had passed away Friday night.  Another bit of saddening news.  I also ask that you pray for her family this time as well.

Now, I am in the process of trying to figure everything out.  I skipped classes on Friday to go pick my car up from the shop.  Then I ran a ton of errands.  I've been waiting to hear from my supervisor to find out if she is okay with me canceling my group at olive branch on Thursday so I can leave on Wednesday after classes, pick up Adam in Ohio, and drive on home to New York to get there in time for my friend's grandmother's funeral Thursday morning.  It's going to be a busy, stressful, crazy week.

Hopefully next month will be better.